Sick baby

I've been slacking on this because Olivia has been sick. She was in the hospital last Sunday - Tuesday. Apaprently, she caught a virus (not RSV but something similar) that escalated into a partially collapsed lung. The whole thing was stressful and scarey but she is doing much better now. She is on multiple breathing treatments but we hope that her doctor will tell us we can reduce that tomorrow. She has graduated from the nebulizer, which she hated, to the aerochamber, which we loooove. Its so much easier and faster. Why didn't they tell us about that before? The hospital pediatrician prescribed an inhaled steroid for Olivia to use for the rest of the winter. We are nervous about that "long-term" treatment and are taking Olivia to see a pediatric pulmonologist in February. Her regular doctor agrees it is time to see a specialist. The general agreement seems to be pointing toward the development of asthma but its still too early to tell. There's nothing worse than having a sick baby. There isn't much you can do for them and they seem so much smaller somehow.

This week has made me second-guess my decision to have another baby. I am not sure we are ready. If I am pregnant right now as we speak, of course I will be thrilled but if I'm not, I think we will put it off for a bit longer...